thoughts of a thinker

“Cogito, ergo sum (I think, therefore I am).” –Rene Descartes

2008: the year that was

i look back at 2008 with quite a lot of regret: i’ve had so many wasted chances that i could never have again. in 2008, i had dreamed up a lot of things that i have not achieved, mainly because of my own lack of determination and comfort with mediocrity.

it was so different 10 years ago, way back in 1998. then, i was a kick-ass go-getter. then, it didn’t matter if what i wanted seemed out of this world. no matter what, i worked hard for it and got it. now that i’m older, it seems as if i’ve lost my love to win and excel and get what i want. it’s too early to get tired of life and to get tired of fighting for things i want to happen with me.

through the years, i think i have lost my zest for living. i feel like an “old” young woman…happy with the way things are when they could be other ways…happy in my little nook, in my little shell.

but i realize that this year i’ve learned the meaning of acceptance to fault. this is how things are; deal with it and get on with your life.

2009: i want to rev things up for me, go to places i wanna go, be someone i wanna be. time to get out of my comfort zone. i’m getting older, and it’s gonna be now or never.


one thing off my wishlist

i got myself a laptop!


now, i’ve got nine things left to fulfill for my 2009 wishlist. 🙂


please, please help me find what i lost…and please keep me from losing anything else…

Prayer for Lost Objects
Saint Anthony, when you prayed your stolen book of prayers was given back to you.
Pray now for all of us who have lost things precious and dear.
Pray for all who have lost faith, hope or the friendship of God.
Pray for us who have lost friends or relatives by death.
Pray for all who have lost peace of mind or spirit.
Pray that we may be given new hope, new faith, new love.
Pray that lost things, needful and helpful to us, may be returned to our keeping.
Or, if we must continue in our loss, pray that we may be given Christ’s comfort and peace. Amen.

my 2009 wishlist

let’s see if anything comes true…by god’s grace and through my own efforts

1) Buy a Laptop

2) Buy camera phone/digital camera

3) Earn in oDesk (wahahah)

4) Start my mini-business

5) Go to Bohol, Corregidor,  Somilon, Boracay, and Siquijor (whichever comes first) for a super vacation!

6) Go to Disneyland HK or Japan or Singapore (hmmm…)

7) Get promoted (hahaha!)

8) LOSE WEIGHT (10 punds off would make me happy)

9) Have a happy and healthy life for myself and my loved ones and everyone else

10) That there be peace on earth – and i’ll start with myself…i’ll spread the love in my own little way

i’ve been thinking of…my life

it’s been quite sometime since i last updated this blog. i’ve been thinking of shutting this down, but when i read it again, i thought that it would be such a waste if i do. and so, i’ll continue to write the thoughts that swim inside my head.

anyway, i’m now 25 years old and two days. i am old, but still not old enough. i am still young, but not as young as i would want to be forever. and so here’s my quote for my birthday:

To accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act.

Anatole France (1844 – 1924)

I’ve been dreaming for a lot of things to happen to me for too long. I think it is time for me to move and do what I should do to make my dreams a reality. I’ve spent the past 25 years dreaming. I am looking forward to spending the years of my life living the realization of my dreams.

i’ve been thinking of: happiness

career-wise, i am happy. i love my job, i’m doing well, i love the people i work with. i can be competitive; i can do my best and be appreciated. i am loving the challenge and the camaraderie.

which brings me back to my previous post; i really should send a thank you note.

i’ve been thinking of: forgiveness

i’ve been thinking of forgiving the people who have managed to mess up my life about six months ago. i haven’t really turned into an angel; it’s just that things have gotten better for me after everything that happened. if they haven’t done what they’ve done, i would have missed the happiness i am experiencing now.

but then again…i’m not exactly a very forgiving person. when someone does me wrong, it will be etched on my memory forever, and depending on how important that person is in my life, the memory could fade a bit. but since those people are not exactly what i would consider as my friends, i am afraid that they are blacklisted from my life forever. oops…i’m kinda harsh, ain’t i? 

maybe i would be able to forgive them soon…forgive i can do, but probably not forget. i have a very sharp memory.